Liam’s first classes were great and he realised how much he had missed teaching and being with that bunch of smart school kids. As much as he loved his family, the past months had only consisted of taking care of three people at the same time, two of them were infants who needed constant watch, and one just needed constant watch because she was constantly close to break-downs. Those summer holidays had been really tough and anything but a relaxing break. Of course things were a lot harder when you didn’t have only one but two babies to care of, and on top of that he couldn’t count on Jo’s support in the first weeks after the twins were born because Jo needed help herself and needed weeks to even realise that she had two children. So yeah, taking care of three people at the same time had been incredibly exhausting, but now things seemed to be better again, since Jo was slowly getting better and he could finally do something else than babysit 24 hours, 7 days a week.
It was nearly lunchtime when he noticed a small paper being slipped through the door. The students were just busy looking at something in their books while he quickly picked up the note and read it. He had no idea what Jo was up to, he hoped everything was okay and that she wasn’t overwhelmed by taking care of the twins alone and now wanted him to help, but it wouldn’t make sense if she called him to the library for helping with the girls.
When lunch started, Liam went to the library where he was greeted almost wildly by his wife who- to his totally surprise- kissed him in a way she hadn’t kissed him for a very long time. He couldn’t say anything because she immediately led him to the picnic blanket with some good looking food and their daughters. Jill was awake while Jane seemed like she was about to doze off any second. They sat down and Jo immediately took his arms and wrapped them around her while she was mentioning again that her body was so awful and she would get back in shape again. She had no idea how much he liked her current body, he liked it more than the one before because now she looked at least a bit womanly and he liked that.
“Liam, say something, please”, Jo said. It was a nice feeling to have her body so close to his, although he was just waiting for her to freak out again any second.
“Ehm…what’s this all for?”
“It’s a surprise for you.”
He liked the surprise, but he couldn’t help but be sceptical. “What’s this all about? I mean the kiss…Usually you push me away as soon as I kiss you like this.”
Jo looked a bit hurt. “I’m getting better, Liam.”
“I know, I’m just…I wasn’t expecting this…” His eyes wandered over to his daughters. “But it’s a nice surprise.”
That same moment Jill made a face that looked like she was about to cry, so he let go off Jo and took his daughter. “It’s all right, Cupcake. Daddy is here.”
Jo looked sad because he let go off her and was now occupied with Jill. She wasn’t jealous of her daughter, but she wished Liam could treat her a bit like he treated the girls.
“Liam, I want us to be close again, but you don’t even manage to kiss me.”
“What are you talking about? I’m kissing you all the time…” He didn’t even look up, his eyes were only fixed on Jill who calmed down again.
“Yes, on my head, on my cheek…Like I’m a distant relative of yours.”
He finally looked up. “I almost raped you, Jo. And I seem to recall that after that you were scared of me, which of course you had all right to be. But when I came even as close as a metre to you, you already flinched. So yes, the past few weeks have been better, but you’re the one who shies away from any form of physical contact, so how am I supposed to know when you suddenly decide you’re ready to be kissed normally again?”
Great job, man! That was very sensitive again.
“Jo, I’m sorry. I just…ever since you got pregnant I don’t know how to be around you. I don’t know what to do around you anymore. One day you want me to hug you and not let go off you, the next day you completely freak out when I have my hand on your knee. I’m confused, and I don’t know how to be around you anymore, I just don’t. What is it that you want?”
It was nearly lunchtime when he noticed a small paper being slipped through the door. The students were just busy looking at something in their books while he quickly picked up the note and read it. He had no idea what Jo was up to, he hoped everything was okay and that she wasn’t overwhelmed by taking care of the twins alone and now wanted him to help, but it wouldn’t make sense if she called him to the library for helping with the girls.
When lunch started, Liam went to the library where he was greeted almost wildly by his wife who- to his totally surprise- kissed him in a way she hadn’t kissed him for a very long time. He couldn’t say anything because she immediately led him to the picnic blanket with some good looking food and their daughters. Jill was awake while Jane seemed like she was about to doze off any second. They sat down and Jo immediately took his arms and wrapped them around her while she was mentioning again that her body was so awful and she would get back in shape again. She had no idea how much he liked her current body, he liked it more than the one before because now she looked at least a bit womanly and he liked that.
“Liam, say something, please”, Jo said. It was a nice feeling to have her body so close to his, although he was just waiting for her to freak out again any second.
“Ehm…what’s this all for?”
“It’s a surprise for you.”
He liked the surprise, but he couldn’t help but be sceptical. “What’s this all about? I mean the kiss…Usually you push me away as soon as I kiss you like this.”
Jo looked a bit hurt. “I’m getting better, Liam.”
“I know, I’m just…I wasn’t expecting this…” His eyes wandered over to his daughters. “But it’s a nice surprise.”
That same moment Jill made a face that looked like she was about to cry, so he let go off Jo and took his daughter. “It’s all right, Cupcake. Daddy is here.”
Jo looked sad because he let go off her and was now occupied with Jill. She wasn’t jealous of her daughter, but she wished Liam could treat her a bit like he treated the girls.
“Liam, I want us to be close again, but you don’t even manage to kiss me.”
“What are you talking about? I’m kissing you all the time…” He didn’t even look up, his eyes were only fixed on Jill who calmed down again.
“Yes, on my head, on my cheek…Like I’m a distant relative of yours.”
He finally looked up. “I almost raped you, Jo. And I seem to recall that after that you were scared of me, which of course you had all right to be. But when I came even as close as a metre to you, you already flinched. So yes, the past few weeks have been better, but you’re the one who shies away from any form of physical contact, so how am I supposed to know when you suddenly decide you’re ready to be kissed normally again?”
Great job, man! That was very sensitive again.
“Jo, I’m sorry. I just…ever since you got pregnant I don’t know how to be around you. I don’t know what to do around you anymore. One day you want me to hug you and not let go off you, the next day you completely freak out when I have my hand on your knee. I’m confused, and I don’t know how to be around you anymore, I just don’t. What is it that you want?”