Jo blushed. “I’m sorry I am such a burden.”
“You are not a burden, you have some problems but you are not a burden.” Liam wrapped his arm around her and was glad that she did not flinch. Jo closed one button “I need to bring Jill to bed she fell asleep. Is that okay?”
“Of course.” Liam smiled at her he was slowly getting used to it that Jo kept asking for permission to do things.
Jo got up from the bed and carried Jill carefully to her nursery. She turned on the nightlight and gave the animal mobile Liam had made for Jill a little push, kissed Jill again and then went over to Jane who was sleeping since an hour. When she came back into her and Liam’s bedroom she knew she had to finish pumping off the milk, Jill didn’t drink a lot from her left breast and she didn’t touch the right one at all. Even when Liam had fixed the pump she still felt very uncomfortable doing the pumping. Liam was reading a book sitting on the bed, when he suddenly looked up and worried by the look Jo had on her face.
“Jo, what is wrong?” He asked concerned.
Jo had to think a moment and remember herself that she had two babies, that she had checked on both of them and that both were fine before she could answer. “The girls are okay.”
It didn’t answer Liam’s question but he let her sit down comfortable and was surprised when she searched in closeness. Jo had the pump in her hand and set it on her breast, but when she started the pumping no milk came, the suction hurt her. Silent tears were running down her cheeks. She tried to adjust the pump on her breast but nothing helped and after a few minutes her silent tears turned into heavy sobbing.
“Liam please help me.”
Liam looked up from his book -in which he hadn’t read since Jo was leaning against him- at Jo. Before he answered he wrapped his arm around her. “Of course.” He took the pump and suddenly realized that he was about to touch Jo’s breast. And now that he saw her breasts he had to admit how beautiful they were. He had to take a very deep breath before he could place the pump on her breast. He started pumping but suddenly noticed that Jo was still sobbing and trying to make herself stop by biting on her lower lip.
“Whoa Jo, are you okay?” Liam looked now really worried at her. “You don’t have to pump milk we can feed them formula and if you don’t want this then I find a wet nurse.”
“No-o.” Jo sobbed. “It just hurts.”
Liam leaned over to the other side of the bed and picked up the instruction for the breast pump.
“It should not hurt. Maybe the pressure is to strong. Let me try something.” Liam placed that pump back on Jo’s breast, this time he gently cupped her breast with his other hand and pressed the handle down very slowly, Jo turned a little but in that her head was resting comfortable on his chest. He could smell her freshly washed hair, and feel her warm body not to mention every breath she took. It was a wonderful feeling of being so close again and even when Jo was still scared Liam would ever hurt her again as he did a little while ago right here in this moment she was so in love with her husband. “I’m sorry that I can’t give you want you need right now.”
Liam kissed Jo on the top of her head. “You are giving me everything I need!”
Jo nodded but they both knew that she not yet could feel his words in her heart. “Liam?”
“Yes?”
“I am incredibly sorry that I am not pretty anymore.”
“Oh Jo, you are the most beautiful girl I know!” Liam whispered, while he gently cover her right breast and started pumping the left one.
“But my boobs are hanging and my stomach is all fluffy and I have stretch marks.” Jo cried. Liam was thinking about Jo for a while now and he noticed something Jo was a lot better when she was well rested, but in the morning just after waking up or at night when she was tired Jo was more likely to cry and be sorry for everything happening on the world. And right now Jo was so tired, she hadn’t slept when Liam went into his lab to do some work. Not to get away from Jo just to get some work done on one of his gadgets, which was not the point right now. Right now Jo was really tired and it made her upset. Liam kissed Jo again and didn’t say a while anything until he finished pumping both sides empty. He got up to put the breast milk into ice cube cases and freeze it. When he came back into the bedroom Jo was holding a book pressed against her chest. He was carrying his guitar and sat down at the bottom of the bed. “I wrote this for you. Just listen, okay? I mean really listen!” Liam smiled encouraging at Jo and she nodded and wiped her tears away. Liam picked up his guitar and put the piece of papers and started playing and singing. Words he truly meant.
“You are not a burden, you have some problems but you are not a burden.” Liam wrapped his arm around her and was glad that she did not flinch. Jo closed one button “I need to bring Jill to bed she fell asleep. Is that okay?”
“Of course.” Liam smiled at her he was slowly getting used to it that Jo kept asking for permission to do things.
Jo got up from the bed and carried Jill carefully to her nursery. She turned on the nightlight and gave the animal mobile Liam had made for Jill a little push, kissed Jill again and then went over to Jane who was sleeping since an hour. When she came back into her and Liam’s bedroom she knew she had to finish pumping off the milk, Jill didn’t drink a lot from her left breast and she didn’t touch the right one at all. Even when Liam had fixed the pump she still felt very uncomfortable doing the pumping. Liam was reading a book sitting on the bed, when he suddenly looked up and worried by the look Jo had on her face.
“Jo, what is wrong?” He asked concerned.
Jo had to think a moment and remember herself that she had two babies, that she had checked on both of them and that both were fine before she could answer. “The girls are okay.”
It didn’t answer Liam’s question but he let her sit down comfortable and was surprised when she searched in closeness. Jo had the pump in her hand and set it on her breast, but when she started the pumping no milk came, the suction hurt her. Silent tears were running down her cheeks. She tried to adjust the pump on her breast but nothing helped and after a few minutes her silent tears turned into heavy sobbing.
“Liam please help me.”
Liam looked up from his book -in which he hadn’t read since Jo was leaning against him- at Jo. Before he answered he wrapped his arm around her. “Of course.” He took the pump and suddenly realized that he was about to touch Jo’s breast. And now that he saw her breasts he had to admit how beautiful they were. He had to take a very deep breath before he could place the pump on her breast. He started pumping but suddenly noticed that Jo was still sobbing and trying to make herself stop by biting on her lower lip.
“Whoa Jo, are you okay?” Liam looked now really worried at her. “You don’t have to pump milk we can feed them formula and if you don’t want this then I find a wet nurse.”
“No-o.” Jo sobbed. “It just hurts.”
Liam leaned over to the other side of the bed and picked up the instruction for the breast pump.
“It should not hurt. Maybe the pressure is to strong. Let me try something.” Liam placed that pump back on Jo’s breast, this time he gently cupped her breast with his other hand and pressed the handle down very slowly, Jo turned a little but in that her head was resting comfortable on his chest. He could smell her freshly washed hair, and feel her warm body not to mention every breath she took. It was a wonderful feeling of being so close again and even when Jo was still scared Liam would ever hurt her again as he did a little while ago right here in this moment she was so in love with her husband. “I’m sorry that I can’t give you want you need right now.”
Liam kissed Jo on the top of her head. “You are giving me everything I need!”
Jo nodded but they both knew that she not yet could feel his words in her heart. “Liam?”
“Yes?”
“I am incredibly sorry that I am not pretty anymore.”
“Oh Jo, you are the most beautiful girl I know!” Liam whispered, while he gently cover her right breast and started pumping the left one.
“But my boobs are hanging and my stomach is all fluffy and I have stretch marks.” Jo cried. Liam was thinking about Jo for a while now and he noticed something Jo was a lot better when she was well rested, but in the morning just after waking up or at night when she was tired Jo was more likely to cry and be sorry for everything happening on the world. And right now Jo was so tired, she hadn’t slept when Liam went into his lab to do some work. Not to get away from Jo just to get some work done on one of his gadgets, which was not the point right now. Right now Jo was really tired and it made her upset. Liam kissed Jo again and didn’t say a while anything until he finished pumping both sides empty. He got up to put the breast milk into ice cube cases and freeze it. When he came back into the bedroom Jo was holding a book pressed against her chest. He was carrying his guitar and sat down at the bottom of the bed. “I wrote this for you. Just listen, okay? I mean really listen!” Liam smiled encouraging at Jo and she nodded and wiped her tears away. Liam picked up his guitar and put the piece of papers and started playing and singing. Words he truly meant.