It was beginning of April, the weekend after Ricky’s birthday, when Jo invited him and Alfie over for dinner that she was going to cook herself. Ricky had so often cooked for her that she wanted to return the favour, she wouldn’t even allow him to help her in the kitchen, she wanted to do this for him, and completely on her own. While she stood in the kitchen the past two hours, Liam had watched the girls and kept them busy, and by the time Ricky and Alfie arrived, both girls had fallen asleep and he put them down in their nurseries.
“Happy belated birthday, Ricky”, Jo said, hugging her best friend tightly. “You don’t look a day older than sixteen, I swear.”
“Thank you, that’s nice to hear”, he said teasingly. “And thank you very much for inviting us, we really appreciate that. Isn’t that right, Alfie?” He looked at his boyfriend with one raised eyebrow, and when Alfie didn’t react, he poked him.
“Indeed”, Alfie replied dryly.
“Where are the girls?”, Ricky asked, and Alfie just rolled his eyes.
“They just fell asleep, they are in their nurseries.” Liam showed up behind his wife and put his hands on her shoulders. “This one has been in the kitchen for hours, so I spent time with the girls and apparently I kind of wore them both out.”
“Jo, you shouldn’t have gone through all that trouble”, Ricky said. “Honestly, I just-“
“Nonsense!”, she interrupted him. “I really wanted to do this for you, you deserve to be spoilt a little, you always work so hard.”
“Now you’re making me blush.”
“You just can’t take any compliments, my dear”, she said with a grin. “By the way, it’s the first time I dared to make a real soufflé, you know, the one you tried to teach me but I always failed. I think I really got it this time.”
“Wow, look at you, all housewifey, cooking and cleaning”, Ricky said teasingly. “I remember how hopeless you were in the kitchen when we first met.”
“Oh yes, back then I only needed to look at the picture of a soufflé and it was already ruined. Anyway, I hope you all are hungry, I probably made enough for the whole town.”
“Watch your carbohydrates, you don’t want to get chubby”, Alfie said to Ricky, not in a joking but a very matter-of-factly way. “Since you don’t go to the gym or do any other sport, you have to watch those things.”
Ricky looked a bit shy. “I know.” He didn’t look at Jo, otherwise he would have seen the outraged expression on her face.
Jo knew that Alfie had difficulties showing emotions, he was even worse than Liam when it came to that, but she had hoped that he would at least be a little nicer to Ricky. She was still not sure what exactly Alfie’s intentions were towards Ricky, when they were among other he at least treated him like he was one of his servants or he just plainly ignored him. Ricky assured her it was all just a cover, and so many times he had told her that Alfie was really different to him and actually kind and caring, but Jo just couldn’t imagine it, since she had obviously never witnessed any of that kind side before. Alfie still scared her now and then, so she normally didn’t dare to speak up to him, but this time she took a deep breath and couldn’t hold it back any longer. That moment Jane started to cry, and Liam quickly went to her nursery, followed by Ricky who wanted to take a look at the girls and help him, so it was just Jo and Alfie, which was always a bit awkward. She didn’t know what to say to him, and he just ignored her- as always. But this time she had something to say, and she sure as hell wouldn’t be quiet again.
“Do you actually care about Ricky at all?” It just slipped out like that, but Jo took all her courage and didn’t even blink while she asked him.
“Excuse me?” There was not one single emotion on his face, it was completely blank, but Jo didn’t lower her eyes, she looked almost challenging at him.
“I know it’s not my business, but-“
“You’re right, it’s not your business”, Alfie said dryly, but not in a mean way, just very indifferent.
Jo took another deep breath. She wanted to ask him directly what Ricky meant to him, why he had chosen him out of all people, but instead she just said the one thing that was constantly on her mind:
“You don’t know the first thing about Ricky, do you?”
She didn’t expect him to answer. In fact, she was pretty sure he would ignore her, but to her surprise it came very different.
“His favourite flowers are daffodils”, Alfie said while he got out a flask and took a sip, then put it back in the pocket of his blazer. “He says daffodils are happy flower, which sounds weird, because flower can’t be happy, but he keeps saying that they belong to the cheerful flowers, not like carnations that belong on a grave. His favourite colour is blue, which people would never guess, since he looks more like the type who likes pastel colours, but yes, he likes blue the most. A very light blue, not the dark one. He always carries a hair comb with him because he worries that his hair gets messed up from the wind, which, of course, happens all the time since we’re in England, so yeah, there’s wind and he gets really annoyed by it, so as soon as he thinks he’s safe inside, he gets the comb out and puts his hair back into place. He likes all Austens and Dickens, but I know that his favourite book is The Diary of Anne Frank. He has a cover of it in his nightstand, and he often reads through it when he thinks I’m asleep. He still cries while he’s reading it, even though he had read it a thousand times. Once I took the book out of the nightstand and saw that he had underlined all his favourite lines, and they all had to do with either freedom or hope.” Alfie paused for a moment, completely ignoring Jo’s shocked and incredibly surprised face. “He likes carrots only cooked, and he cuts pasta in a way that would drive every proper Italian completely crazy. He doesn’t really like butter, so he usually uses margarine. He doesn’t drink coffee, only tea, with one and a half spoons of sugar and a bit of milk. He tries to deny it but I know that he used to have a crush on Marlon Brando in A Streetcar Named Desire, which I really don’t get because I don’t think a poor Polish drunk guy is very appealing, but I already noticed that in all those old black and white movies Ricky always had a thing for the bad guys. Well, and he obviously always had that thing for Paul McCartney, which I don’t get either, but that’s fine. I can always tell what mood he’s in according to what Beatles songs he listens to. When he’s in a good mood, he mostly listens to Penny Lane, She loves you, Help, and Here comes the Sun. When he’s depressed or had a stressful day, he listens to Michelle, Let it be, and I'm only sleeping. Now when he’s really sad, not stressed, just sad, he listens to Hey Jude, which is a really strange song to listen to when you’re sad, but he does. All the time. The typical choice would be Yesterday, you might think, but no, for him it’s Hey Jude. His favourite artists are the impressionists, like Monet and Renoir. He sees so much in those paintings, it’s sometimes crazy how much he sees when nobody else sees it. He always falls asleep while lying on his left side, and he often talks in his sleep, but I barely can make out the words. He likes the sound of rain on the window, and he enjoys watching it even more than listening to it. I probably don’t need to mention that he’s totally into musicals, and he adores Grace Kelly. He said if he was straight, he would have a crush on her. Which I actually get, because she isn’t too shabby looking. Well, at least she used to look nice, now she’s all old and wrinkly.” He was quiet for a moment. “He’s scared of spiders. Well, he’s generally scared of everything that crawls, but spiders are the worst. He loves Tchaikovsky, especially all the music Tchaikovsky composed for the ballet. He’s not a fan of Chopin, and he finds Beethoven quite depressing most of the time. He often looks at the hands of people, I don’t know why, but he has a thing with hands. He can often tell what kind of person someone is by looking at their hands, which I find silly, but he actually has proven me wrong because he really did guess the peoples’ characters just by looking at their hands. His favourite season is spring, he’s into all that flower stuff going on. His favourite fairy tale is Cinderella, because he likes that a poor girl who slept in ashes became a queen later. He calls that justice.” Alfie finally looked at Jo, still no expression on his face. “You’re probably right, I don’t know the first thing about him.”
Jo bit her lip. She wanted to say something, but she was so caught off and surprised about what just happened that she had no words for it, and when she finally opened her mouth, Alfie turned away and shoved his hands into his pockets.
“I need something to drink”, he said, not referring to water, of course. He still had some whiskey left in his flask but he didn’t feel like sitting here with Liam’s wife who would probably start asking him questions soon if he wouldn’t escape from her on time, so he left the room without giving her the chance to say something.
“Happy belated birthday, Ricky”, Jo said, hugging her best friend tightly. “You don’t look a day older than sixteen, I swear.”
“Thank you, that’s nice to hear”, he said teasingly. “And thank you very much for inviting us, we really appreciate that. Isn’t that right, Alfie?” He looked at his boyfriend with one raised eyebrow, and when Alfie didn’t react, he poked him.
“Indeed”, Alfie replied dryly.
“Where are the girls?”, Ricky asked, and Alfie just rolled his eyes.
“They just fell asleep, they are in their nurseries.” Liam showed up behind his wife and put his hands on her shoulders. “This one has been in the kitchen for hours, so I spent time with the girls and apparently I kind of wore them both out.”
“Jo, you shouldn’t have gone through all that trouble”, Ricky said. “Honestly, I just-“
“Nonsense!”, she interrupted him. “I really wanted to do this for you, you deserve to be spoilt a little, you always work so hard.”
“Now you’re making me blush.”
“You just can’t take any compliments, my dear”, she said with a grin. “By the way, it’s the first time I dared to make a real soufflé, you know, the one you tried to teach me but I always failed. I think I really got it this time.”
“Wow, look at you, all housewifey, cooking and cleaning”, Ricky said teasingly. “I remember how hopeless you were in the kitchen when we first met.”
“Oh yes, back then I only needed to look at the picture of a soufflé and it was already ruined. Anyway, I hope you all are hungry, I probably made enough for the whole town.”
“Watch your carbohydrates, you don’t want to get chubby”, Alfie said to Ricky, not in a joking but a very matter-of-factly way. “Since you don’t go to the gym or do any other sport, you have to watch those things.”
Ricky looked a bit shy. “I know.” He didn’t look at Jo, otherwise he would have seen the outraged expression on her face.
Jo knew that Alfie had difficulties showing emotions, he was even worse than Liam when it came to that, but she had hoped that he would at least be a little nicer to Ricky. She was still not sure what exactly Alfie’s intentions were towards Ricky, when they were among other he at least treated him like he was one of his servants or he just plainly ignored him. Ricky assured her it was all just a cover, and so many times he had told her that Alfie was really different to him and actually kind and caring, but Jo just couldn’t imagine it, since she had obviously never witnessed any of that kind side before. Alfie still scared her now and then, so she normally didn’t dare to speak up to him, but this time she took a deep breath and couldn’t hold it back any longer. That moment Jane started to cry, and Liam quickly went to her nursery, followed by Ricky who wanted to take a look at the girls and help him, so it was just Jo and Alfie, which was always a bit awkward. She didn’t know what to say to him, and he just ignored her- as always. But this time she had something to say, and she sure as hell wouldn’t be quiet again.
“Do you actually care about Ricky at all?” It just slipped out like that, but Jo took all her courage and didn’t even blink while she asked him.
“Excuse me?” There was not one single emotion on his face, it was completely blank, but Jo didn’t lower her eyes, she looked almost challenging at him.
“I know it’s not my business, but-“
“You’re right, it’s not your business”, Alfie said dryly, but not in a mean way, just very indifferent.
Jo took another deep breath. She wanted to ask him directly what Ricky meant to him, why he had chosen him out of all people, but instead she just said the one thing that was constantly on her mind:
“You don’t know the first thing about Ricky, do you?”
She didn’t expect him to answer. In fact, she was pretty sure he would ignore her, but to her surprise it came very different.
“His favourite flowers are daffodils”, Alfie said while he got out a flask and took a sip, then put it back in the pocket of his blazer. “He says daffodils are happy flower, which sounds weird, because flower can’t be happy, but he keeps saying that they belong to the cheerful flowers, not like carnations that belong on a grave. His favourite colour is blue, which people would never guess, since he looks more like the type who likes pastel colours, but yes, he likes blue the most. A very light blue, not the dark one. He always carries a hair comb with him because he worries that his hair gets messed up from the wind, which, of course, happens all the time since we’re in England, so yeah, there’s wind and he gets really annoyed by it, so as soon as he thinks he’s safe inside, he gets the comb out and puts his hair back into place. He likes all Austens and Dickens, but I know that his favourite book is The Diary of Anne Frank. He has a cover of it in his nightstand, and he often reads through it when he thinks I’m asleep. He still cries while he’s reading it, even though he had read it a thousand times. Once I took the book out of the nightstand and saw that he had underlined all his favourite lines, and they all had to do with either freedom or hope.” Alfie paused for a moment, completely ignoring Jo’s shocked and incredibly surprised face. “He likes carrots only cooked, and he cuts pasta in a way that would drive every proper Italian completely crazy. He doesn’t really like butter, so he usually uses margarine. He doesn’t drink coffee, only tea, with one and a half spoons of sugar and a bit of milk. He tries to deny it but I know that he used to have a crush on Marlon Brando in A Streetcar Named Desire, which I really don’t get because I don’t think a poor Polish drunk guy is very appealing, but I already noticed that in all those old black and white movies Ricky always had a thing for the bad guys. Well, and he obviously always had that thing for Paul McCartney, which I don’t get either, but that’s fine. I can always tell what mood he’s in according to what Beatles songs he listens to. When he’s in a good mood, he mostly listens to Penny Lane, She loves you, Help, and Here comes the Sun. When he’s depressed or had a stressful day, he listens to Michelle, Let it be, and I'm only sleeping. Now when he’s really sad, not stressed, just sad, he listens to Hey Jude, which is a really strange song to listen to when you’re sad, but he does. All the time. The typical choice would be Yesterday, you might think, but no, for him it’s Hey Jude. His favourite artists are the impressionists, like Monet and Renoir. He sees so much in those paintings, it’s sometimes crazy how much he sees when nobody else sees it. He always falls asleep while lying on his left side, and he often talks in his sleep, but I barely can make out the words. He likes the sound of rain on the window, and he enjoys watching it even more than listening to it. I probably don’t need to mention that he’s totally into musicals, and he adores Grace Kelly. He said if he was straight, he would have a crush on her. Which I actually get, because she isn’t too shabby looking. Well, at least she used to look nice, now she’s all old and wrinkly.” He was quiet for a moment. “He’s scared of spiders. Well, he’s generally scared of everything that crawls, but spiders are the worst. He loves Tchaikovsky, especially all the music Tchaikovsky composed for the ballet. He’s not a fan of Chopin, and he finds Beethoven quite depressing most of the time. He often looks at the hands of people, I don’t know why, but he has a thing with hands. He can often tell what kind of person someone is by looking at their hands, which I find silly, but he actually has proven me wrong because he really did guess the peoples’ characters just by looking at their hands. His favourite season is spring, he’s into all that flower stuff going on. His favourite fairy tale is Cinderella, because he likes that a poor girl who slept in ashes became a queen later. He calls that justice.” Alfie finally looked at Jo, still no expression on his face. “You’re probably right, I don’t know the first thing about him.”
Jo bit her lip. She wanted to say something, but she was so caught off and surprised about what just happened that she had no words for it, and when she finally opened her mouth, Alfie turned away and shoved his hands into his pockets.
“I need something to drink”, he said, not referring to water, of course. He still had some whiskey left in his flask but he didn’t feel like sitting here with Liam’s wife who would probably start asking him questions soon if he wouldn’t escape from her on time, so he left the room without giving her the chance to say something.